Entering a peaceful moment in my life after a heavy attack from the enemy. I felt so lonely and felt the whole world was against me. I questioned all the things I did right and how things could go so wrong. I questioned my growth in God. I was stuck in a hateful and angry place and could barely see the light. I did not want to be around anyone but God would not allow that and the people that came into contact me was a true blessing from God. I have been writing this blog to help encourage myself and just to be able to share what God is doing for me and that God can do the same for you. However, I let the enemy get ahold of my situation. I started seeing things for what it looked like and not having faith for what it could be. I was giving up, I was letting go and through it all I still trusted God and prayed for my heart to be healed and my mind to be at peace.

My marriage was breaking down. Both of us said things that really did not help the situation. We both were giving up. I was angry because I was believing God for more. I kept hearing before everything "Get Ready" I just did not know to get ready for. But that is all I heard. Maybe it was for this period that my husband and I went through.
I could not write, I could not encourage I was devasted. But I love to write so I just did a disservice to myself. The enemy was slick trying to kill my spirit, steal my joy and destroy my marriage. But I kept praying and seeking wise counsel. And so many people were praying for me and my husband. I tahnk God for them! I encourage you to find people not just any people but that God kind of people that will pray for you for God's will not for their will or my will.

My prayer was to have a marriage that honored God because that is what it is supposed to be like! My prayer was for my heart, mind, eyes, and ears to be cleared away from the old and be open to the new. It was funny because I thought that I was the victim and that I was right in everything. I believed that my husband was at fault for everything but God opened my eyes, ears heart and mind and I saw some things that I was doing and it was not right, it was not beneficial to our marriage.

Marriage is not easy AT ALL! I do not care what your friends are posting on Facebook or Instagram or waht ever social medium I realized people only post the good stuff and you think they have it all together but they don't and its ok. There will be problems on top of problems the only way to get through them is with God.

Marriage is awesome don't get me wrong, I love being married to my husband, my king. I love the companionship and support. I love hugging and kissing him. We both just have a lot of learning to do and a WHOLE LOT OF COMPROMISE. But as long as we are doing it the God way we won't fail!

Stay tuned for more! I have a lot to say!

Cicely

For many years and still sometimes I compared my suuccess to others successes. I would wonder am I where I need to be at based on my age or abilities. I saw someone the same age and would think that I am so far behind.

"I didn't have kids when they did"
"I was not married"
"I did not finish my degree at their age"
"I am not far spiritually like them"
"I do not have money like they do"
OR EVEN ON THE OTHER END OF THE SPECTRUM:
"She should have already done that"
"What, she had kids already I am glad I waited"
"I am so much further in my degree and we started at the same time"

HAVE YOU EVER DONE THAT!!! Be honest. We compare ourselves so much to others and even more true for women. We go deep as body shapes, hair, clothes and other petty stuff.

I was measuring myself based on their standards and their way of life. Thing is we did not start at the same starting line, we did not have the same resources such as family, money, location, and other things that set us apart. It took me a very long time to realize that it was not their standards that I am to measure myself at but my own standards. BUT THEN, my relationship with Christ grew deeper and stronger and realized oh hold up it isn't even my standards but GODS! Did you know that? Galatians 1:10 states," For do I now persuade men, or God? Or do I seek to please men? For if I still pleased men, I would not
be a bondservant of Christ."   Now we are Christians and we know that the only LEGIT Judge is God but why are we constantly trying to prove ourselves to others? Why are we crossing over in other's lanes only to fall over and over because that was not the life, the path God gave us individually.
Galatians 6:4-5 "But let each one examine his own work, and then he will have rejoicing in himself alone, and not in another. 5 For each one shall bear his own load." This scripture brings me to the main point of this article,

"Who's Story Are You Telling?"

"What Have You Experienced that claims Victory and Triumph?"

"Are Your Stories Worth Sharing?"

Many people have lived a very safe, sheltered life where they are just existing and not living. God does not want that, He came so that we can have life and not just any life, a life more abundantly (John 10:10). We are to enjoy life that God has given us... who gives us richly all things to enjoy, doing good works, giving and sharing (1 Tim 6:17-18). We pray the Lords prayer that His Kingdom come here on earth as it is in Heaven (Matt 6:9-13).... WHAT WE CAN HAVE HEAVEN ON EARTH??? That's another article just waiting to be written but back to this one!  So why are we so safe? What story are we going to have to tell our children?
On the other end, are our stories bringing defamtion to our names or better yet our Savior's name? Are we living a life that would bring SHAME to our AWESOME GOD? Are the stories in your life ones WORTH sharing? Will it cause others to be brought down? Do our stories encourage life or death?

Ok if we are living a safe life under a rock who get's the GLORY?

If we are living a crazy life full of shame who gets the GLORY?

What about that life where you are living, approach roadblocks, bumps, trials, tribulations but you are TRUSTING AND BELIEVING THAT GOD WILL BRING YOU THROUGH IT... and then HE DOES! Who gets the GLORY?--- Is this the story worth telling? Will this inspire and bless others when you tell them your story? Can you tell your children and then they can tell their children of how GOD is so faithful?
Those are the stories worth telling.

I DARE YOU TO SHARE YOUR STORY!!! Post it in the comments section. Bless someone.

Please comment and share!
Peace and Blessings
Cicely