My marriage was breaking down. Both of us said things that really did not help the situation. We both were giving up. I was angry because I was believing God for more. I kept hearing before everything "Get Ready" I just did not know to get ready for. But that is all I heard. Maybe it was for this period that my husband and I went through.
I could not write, I could not encourage I was devasted. But I love to write so I just did a disservice to myself. The enemy was slick trying to kill my spirit, steal my joy and destroy my marriage. But I kept praying and seeking wise counsel. And so many people were praying for me and my husband. I tahnk God for them! I encourage you to find people not just any people but that God kind of people that will pray for you for God's will not for their will or my will.
My prayer was to have a marriage that honored God because that is what it is supposed to be like! My prayer was for my heart, mind, eyes, and ears to be cleared away from the old and be open to the new. It was funny because I thought that I was the victim and that I was right in everything. I believed that my husband was at fault for everything but God opened my eyes, ears heart and mind and I saw some things that I was doing and it was not right, it was not beneficial to our marriage.
Marriage is not easy AT ALL! I do not care what your friends are posting on Facebook or Instagram or waht ever social medium I realized people only post the good stuff and you think they have it all together but they don't and its ok. There will be problems on top of problems the only way to get through them is with God.
Marriage is awesome don't get me wrong, I love being married to my husband, my king. I love the companionship and support. I love hugging and kissing him. We both just have a lot of learning to do and a WHOLE LOT OF COMPROMISE. But as long as we are doing it the God way we won't fail!
Stay tuned for more! I have a lot to say!
Cicely