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So my birthday is coming up (Sept 10) and I usually celebrate ALL MONTH LONG... but this birthday I am I think sad... I do not know why. I do not really want to celebrate it at all. I am super busy with other people's agendas and other things. I have training on my bday for work. I am just in a funk about my birthday. I did have a list of things I wanted for my birthday when I was excited about it. I am turning 25 again for the 4th time so maybe I am nervous about getting older.... What do you think it is?

I am sure I will be going to Benihana's though for my free meal! LOL... But yea... not too excited which is soooo weird for me! Ah well...

Peace and Blessings,


A store that sells husbands has just opened in New York City , where a
woman may go to choose a husband. Among the instructions at the entrance is a
description of how the store operates. You may visit the store ONLY ONCE
There are six floors and the attributes of the men increase as the
shopper ascends the flights. There is, however, a catch .. . you may choose
any man from a particular floor, or you may choose to go up a floor, but you
cannot go back down except to exit the
So, a woman goes to the Husband Store to find a husband .
On the first floor the sign on the door reads:
Floor 1 - These men have jobs and love the Lord.

The second floor sign reads:
Floor 2 - These men have jobs, love the Lord, and
love kids.

The third floor sign reads:
Floor 3 - These men have jobs, love the Lord, love
kids, and are
extremely good looking.
"Wow," she thinks, but feels compelled to keep

She goes to the fourth floor and sign reads:
Floor 4 - These men have jobs, love the Lord, love
kids, are drop- dead
good looking and help with the housework.
"Oh, mercy me!" she exclaims, "I can hardly stand

Still, she goes to the fifth floor and sign reads:
Floor 5 - These men have jobs, love the Lord, love
kids, are drop- dead gorgeous, help with the housework, and have a
strong romantic streak.
She is so tempted to stay, but she goes to the sixth
floor and the sign

Floor 6 - You are visitor 4,363,012 to this floor.
There are no men on
this floor. This floor exists solely as proof that women
are impossible to please.
Thank you for shopping at the Husband Store. Watch
your step as you exit
the building, and have a nice day!


I received a book called The Power of a Praying Wife by Stormie Omartian. It has blessed me tremendously. She states that before she prayed over her husband she had to confess her hardened heart. She was hurt deeply by her husband. She states that she doesn't want to pray for this man that hurt her, she wanted lightening to strike him EXTREME YES! But so true. I had maybe still have anger for my husband for not living up to MY potential. I have been hurt many many times by his actions, words and rejection. It was hard for me to begin praying for my husband. I so badly wanted to say GOD YOU BETTER CHANGE THIS MAN OR I'M LEAVING. I wanted to Pray GOD he needs to learn how to please me love me how I want to be loved. He needs to make time for me, he needs to etc. etc. etc. That definitely would not have delivered the results I needed out of our marriage. Even today and last night I felt rejected by the one I gave my heart to but it is the prayer that releases that pain and allows you to be hurt over and over because I know it is not the end of the hurt there never will be. I just learn how give it to GOD, pray and move on.
Before I pray over my husband I pray for myself, I have to set the tone and know that it is not just my husband that needs prayer.
Things in my prayer:
  • Help me to be a good wife to my husband, the supportive type. The helpmeet, his champion.
  • Clear and soften my heart, remove the anger, resentment, the selfishness and bitterness.
  • Put in my heart patience, kindness, love, long-suffering
  • There needs to be a confession of all things ill, and ask for forgiveness
  • Ask God for His help in forgiving your husband, putting away disappointment
  • Ask God for areas you need help in, communication, finances, respect, time etc
  • Ask God to teach you how to do things that will best support him, you and the marriage
  • Pray that temptation will be set at bay pray for your husband to be strong in the Lord
  • Ask God to Show you both how to love each other and work together as one and not separate
  • Pray he accepts his role as head of household and lead with amazing grace
  • Pray that everyday I become a new creature shedding off the old and be a new wife for my husband with grace and mercy
There is so much you can pray for but I always pray for myself first so that I do not come to GOD with harsh demands and prayer out of anger. I hate pointing fingers so I work on the log in my eye and not pray to change my husband but pray GOD uses him the way he wants to use him and allow GOD to work in him allowing transformation and not just change.

I have grown to love praying over my husband in so many areas. I am the only one who really has the right to do it and if I don't who will. I am in my rightful place; I am his wife. Just watch and see how my blogs will change over time. This is just the beginning. God is moving up in here!!!


I struggled for a very long time and by long time I mean about 25 years to realize that I was beautiful. I allowed for men/boys to take advantage of me not knowingly because I was trying to take advantage of them. End the end I was the one suffering feeling so alone. I thought I could play the game and not get hurt. But I was hurt physically, emotionally, mentally and spiritually. I went and sowed my "royal" oats but those oats were not royal but wild. They harvested bitterness, distrust, unrealistic reality, depression, drunkenness, low exceptions and so much more. 

I realized that I was not hurting anyone but myself. It took a card from my mother with Psalms 139:13-14
    13 For you created my inmost being;
    you knit me together in my mother’s womb.
    14 I praise you because I am fearfully and wonderfully made;
    your works are wonderful,
    I know that full well.
written in it. However, I brushed it off. But then God spoke through a gentleman which reveled confirmation. He told me that verse and then it clicked. I realized that GOD made me ON purpose WITH purpose. I then calmed my ways out there in the world. I did not completely stop what I was doing but I began to see the value of my life and that I had so much more to live by.
I reflect on all the ways God kept me from hurt and harm and all the danger. It was like I floated through everything and was not TOUCHED by a single thing. I went about 7 years of living in the eye of the storm, I did not see the peace and the quiet all I saw was the dangers all around me. I now know that God was carrying me and telling me this is not what I have for you.

My mother told me when I was younger that I was putting up glasses in the cupboards and leaned on it the wrong way and about 30 glasses fell not on top of me but all around me. Not one single touch.

One day I was driving drunk and high. I drove only about 8 blocks. I knew I could not and should not drive but I did anyways, God made sure I did not run into anything, I parked that car horribly and went home to bed.

I never fit in when I was doing the wrong thing I know because I did not like going out and getting drunk. I did not like the feeling, I did not like feeling like I had no control. I now know that God put something in me, you know, my purpose, because like a bad heart, my body, heart and mind rejected these events.

But God, He protected me and carried me when I was not myself. Once I realized that, I had to ingrain in my mind so it could get into my heart so that it got into my walk and talk that I was fearfully and wonderfully made.